Mormons

Goodness gracious I don't know how to deal with 'em.
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this is just disheartening... http://economix.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/07/26/the-two-track-lawyer-market/

It shouldn't be really.  Why is money important?...What's more disheartening is 40% of recent law school graduates quit practicing a year after graduation.  Or never started.  10 years out the number jumps to 90% from non-top tier schools.  So what's the point of as much as $100,000 in debt if you can't make up for it later on.  I guess I have no reason to think I couldn't be in that 1st quartile if I worked at it.  But I so dislike risk.

I guess this has got me so down because I'm not really what I would call passionate about going to law school, and I think that's a good thing to have in a profession.  It was just a track to stability.  Goodness I'm complacent about my worldliness.  I just want stability? How many different kinds of stupid is that.

I'm having trouble informing myself as to why I am here.  I just don't know.  My career compass is spinning around in circles.  Like Jack Sparrow when he doesn't know what he wants.  What on earth does God's voice sound like?  I want answers.  I want to be told what to do.  Definitively.  So I can be confident in what I do.  I'm tired of feeling blindfolded.  I am not making any progress this way.  I want to see for miles and miles.  Twenty years on this earth and I'm still shooting from the hip, in the dark, with earplugs, a stuffed up nose, sand in my mouth, and gloves that don't fit.

Today I presented "stone" by Michael Palmer in 202.  It went pretty poorly by my guesstimation, but that's usually still meant a positive product according to Tony so who the heck knows how I did.  I'm trying to admire the high concentration of brilliant people in that class, but more often than not it just makes me angry.

Pray pray pray pray pray Matt pray...

I got up and just failed to be Godly all morning. Came home.  and now I'm here.  Feeling pretty lame.

I looked a little bit at the secondary education degree program online.  It's something I may turn to in a year or two.  I obviously need to get some stuff figured out.  I guess the key for now is just putting my all into everything that's before me at this moment and seeing where God might take me from there.