Tingly

I feel tingly.  Not in a good way. In that...intensely unsatisfied way.  That way. you know.  That.  Maybe it's...me putting so many things from my mind that my mind has frozen up.  Like.  Having so many programs open but minimized slows down computers (does that even really happen? I'm sure it must)  I guess I can remedy that by writing everything down and starting to tear away at it.  I dunno.  The tingle in all this fuzz is...just people. and not people.

I spent a good 90 minutes today reading through all 19 pages of this thread on the Viking Village forum called "Hey you, and the moment you've been waiting for."  It's people taking the least risky, hardly-a-step-at-all-step towards meeting people that they've admired from afar for a day or for months.  "Hey you, person I would've been madly in love with already if we lived that long time ago in the galaxy far far away..."  Yeah.  I don't think any of the posts were referring to me.  Not that i was expecting it.  Not that many people post on there, and most of them are the hyper-liberal God-debunking type anyway.

Thinking through what I've got to do by next Wednesday I feel pretty good.  This short story should come along pretty easily when I get to it, the final essay for 307 looks pretty easy, almost a rehash of the first essay.  Take home test for 309, in class exam Wednesday for 313 which should be ...well, manageable.  The only thing that leaves me a little unnerved at this point is the 5-6 page analysis of one of the texts we've read in that class I'm supposed to do.  I'm not alone in feeling kind've disconnected from what my goal is supposed to be with that I don't think.  But I'll figure it out.  I actually have til next Friday to do that one, but I have to turn in a hard copy, and I don't want to actually stay until Friday.  I'm hoping to leave Wednesday night, right after my final at 5:30 or after GC, closer to 9.  I don't really care to get home at midnight, but...It might be less trafficked and more beautiful.  We'll see.

I dunno.  I guess I really need prayer to just feel more...lose and aware of what's gotta get down.  To bite down and chew away.  If I work hard a 4.0 is really possible this quarter (Just like it is for almost anyone even up to the last week and a half of the quarter).  Right now though, I'm projecting...3.8.  A- in both 307 and 313, and an A in 309.  We'll see.

Going home messes up my rhythm.  Not that I don't love all of you but.  Man.  I feel like I was at a good pace getting up this hill but then came to a sudden stop and now have to work extra hard to get that momentum back again.

I'm giving up irresponsibility for lent.  and thoughts of girls. (lolz on one of those...)

Currently Listening:  Children 18:3: Rains' A Comin',  Thousand Foot Krutch: The Flame in All of Us, FFH: I Wanna Be Like You.

I'm having a hard time finding music to "purge me of this lonely mood..."

(Half and hour later:  The answer was "The Coldest Heart." and remind me to talk about Job.)