Yes, Yes again, and Yes forever. Today is the first official day of spring break. So far I've spent it recovering from my weekend with Jared (through sleep), doing laundry, washing dishes, and reading Song of Songs.
I'm always (a lot) scared to read Song of Songs. I figure it's hard to read it with a right mind. It's really not as explicit as I remember thinking it was when me and Jared would go through it and just laugh at the colorful metaphors.
Some take away points? Well the refrain "Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires" I like. In my romantic mind it means something like...don't go around trying to force the issue of. romance. Don't be overly eager. Don't. Be dumb. Like I have been. The study Bible makes note of it being in the context of physical affection every time it comes up. So that makes some obvious sense. Don't get freaky until its time to get freaky. (which is after its time to get married by the way).
7:10 says "I belong to my lover, and his desire is for me." That's just a biting critique of lusting after women. Cheapening them through sex. Cheapening a girlfriend through sex. Cheapening a person by lusting after them or having sex with them. It's not good. If it's not your don't touch it. That sounds terribly (and ironically?) objectifying. Be smart people. I'm obviously not meaning to be. Sex is freaking amazing. Between a husband and wife. I can't go fooling around. Instead I should get with some 7:13 "...I have stored up (...'delicacies') for you my lover." Yeah.
I keep on lamenting that I left my grandmother's notebook containing everything she was able to write down in one sitting about her life and grandpa's life.
Don't give up on love people...sheesh. I'm not going to say anything about personal stuff I've witnessed recently but. Some people make me gag with their immaturity. I need to be praying for them. Not almost dieing, choking on my own vomit.
I had my first drinking experience on Thursday night last. I was very careful not to get drunk. Although where that line exactly is I don't know. The point is I remember everything, did nothing horrible, didn't puke, and was able to walk in a straight line the whole time. What I did do was get loud. but still...sensical. Obnoxious loud at times maybe, but I can be obnoxious loud any normal day. If I could channel that uninhibited charisma on a normal day though, without the assistance of Jack Daniels...God would find it a lot easier to use me. I was infinitely more productive for Jesus in that night that I've been all year. (I shared the Gospel with 1 guy, and I think I've shared the Gospel with 0 guys this year before him.)
My dad buys the most disgusting beer I've ever tasted (I've tasted two beers).
Let's see. There was a potatoe bar potluck after church on Sunday. It was good, and I was killing it with the 12-year-olds.
I missed Bill Faye speak on Sunday. Slept right until it started. Didn't want to get myself up and pretty to be half an hour late.
Djokovic is being dominant this year, and since I'm remembering that schools still in for the CK school district I won't be playing tennis at all this break it turns out.
Jordan Swanberg has left Silverdale even more permanently. He is now a Cop. A bonafide officer of the law in Colorado Springs. Good luck BRO. I'll try and keep you in my prayers.
I went to this place called the Grub Hut in Kingston with Jared, Jordan, and Jason. That was the last time we'll be together for a long time. Existential guilt.
I'm starting to worry about my chances getting into UW law. I'll have good enough grades, and I think I'll kill the LSAT, which is 90% of what matters, the rest practically being a participation grade...but. Bah w/e. I think I'm going to pursue another career, maybe paralegal, for a couple years after graduation. See if I even like that atmosphere, before I commit to $100,000 of debt. People say once you stop going to school it's almost impossible to get yourself to go back though. I don't know if I'd mind all that much. I'd be free.
As long as I remember to live for Jesus first...
Had a great time with a surprisingly successful (as far as attendance is concerned) reunionish party yesterday night. Derrick, Colin, Lyndsay, Nick, Brian, Emma. Thanks for coming. You're awesome.
Lets kick this Spring break in the face.
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