An Impasse

Choosing a hairstyle is a major life decision, and too many people, including myself, have gone there whole lives with no good advice on how to make this decision.  I believe n fact that it must be just as big as where to go to school, what to study when you get there (which I think is actually not very major actually...), and what to do afterwards.  Perhaps who you marry trumps it. 

The upside is every few months you get to remake it.  Well...most of us do at least.  I'm sorry father.

(1 week later)

I'm going to write a bit on my emotions, before I banish them away and opt for something more real.

I hate love stories.  I just saw another one unfold about Santa Clause and a park ranger...

They were all fine and dandy when I was younger. (and sheesh, I'm still pretty young. but humor me please!) I would smile, and they'd be an encouragement.  I knew that one day I would be a part of one.  Now it seems they only depress and frustrate.  I question their very existence.  It gets worse all the time.  Thoughts of just, taking what I can get...settling for what is at least livable...I don't think I believe in these things yet really.

I think I still believe in love stories.  But I'm close to forsaking them. At only twenty years of age though? My goodness Matt, how old are those newbs in all those movie? They still have a few years on you sir.  You can't give up yet! No...I can't give up yet...

Can we settle down please?

Goodness.  Some people.  I mean.  Can we please stop being 8 years old? I mean.  It's cool maybe every once in awhile.  Maybe.

Jesus, help me to not be annoyed by idiots.  Help me to love idiots.  Help me to forget the word idiot.

Today was a long day.  And it's not even over.

Got up earlier than I would have liked to work on linguistics.  Went to class.  Found out I didn't actually have to do half of it.  Was talked into going to the gym.  Did 8 pull ups my first set.  That's a personal best.  Ran a mile.  It kicked the snot out of me.  Another Matt joined our group.  Now there are 4 Matts, 3 Jakes, and Trey.

I had One on One with Joey yesterday.  He's a great guy.  A real encouragement.

The Light and Gold cd is pretty awesome.  Seal Lullaby is...a lullaby. and it's awesome.

Ooooh...Core tonight was...potentially enlightening.  A new guy, Rick, gave his life to Christ for the first time right next to me.  It was something else.

Thanksgiving was really fun, but in a lot of ways it really sucked.  It was going home, true, but it was going home to the same everything and that's.  Frustrating.  I faltered on a lot of stuff.


I'm coming home again tomorrow.  Plan is to come back Wednesday morning/afternoon with at least Kara, Go to polisci review session at 6, go to game night around 9, go to bed.  Take final at 1, drive back at 3 in time to get to practice at 7.

I'm tired...just.  Tired.